Well that was an ordeal...

Last Wednesday night we had take away for dinner...about an hour later my 6 and a half year old daughter started having bad tummy pains...2 hours later they were getting worse so we gave her some panadol and popped her into bed. She didn't sleep much over night because of the pain which was getting worse. At 5am she came into my room saying it was really really bad and crying...then she vomited!!! The pain only got worse after that. So we got dressed and went straight to the emergency department. The Doctor checked her out and said that while it was probably just something she ate... She was a little concerned that it may be appendicitis. So we were sent home on the previser that if the pain got worse or moved to the right of her abdomen then we had to go back to the hospital.
Jasmine slept almost all day on Thursday...waking periodically with pain and there was no more vomiting. Thursday night was the same.
Friday my Mum came to look after the kids while my hubby and I both worked. Jas had started to eat again saying that the pain wasn't as bad...she had Vegemite toast and red icy poles.
I got home from work at around 4:30 pm and as I walked in the door I heard Jas crying in pain again...she was doubled over and not looking good. I rangmy Doctor straight away and He said to bring her in and He would see her immediately.
When we got there He assessed her and was of the mind set that it was just something that would pass and that she should be fine to go home and rest with panadol and fluids, but just to make sure He wanted a urine specimen. So Jas and went off to the loos to get that...she couldn't give me one so we went back to the Doc's room...as we sat down to wait for him to come back Jas said "oh oh...mum...I think I'm got to throw up!". I grabbed the nearest thing...zip lock bags for pathology and my Mum and I took turns catching it!!
It was so red...I started to freak out a little...but Mum assured me that it was probably just the red icy pole that she had eaten 6 hours prior.
When the Doctor came back He tested the vomit and it came up positive for blood.
I did the freak out quietly thing again!
He said He wanted us to go straight back into emergency...so off we went.
There they did blood test which all came back clear, so the conclusion ..at 1 am...was that she had a tear in her oesophagus from vomiting so hard! This explained the pain and the blood. She was to be on fluids for a few days with no solid food, nothing spicy, nothing to salty and no sugar as all of these would irritate the tear and cause her problems again.
Jas didn't wake up till 1:30 pm on sat after her night in emergency!!
The pain was still there and she wasn't feeling up to drinking much.
Sunday was much the same.
Then at bed time on Sunday night Jasmine got a fever...it was high.
We popped her in to bed with another dose of panadol and she slept fairly well.
She woke up Monday morning with a raging temp and a sore head...I knew what was going on we have been here many times before...She had a UTI! These particularly dangerous for Jas as she has a duplex system on her right kidney...we joke the God just chucked in some extra parts while He was putting her together!! LOL.
So I went to work and my Husband was home to look after her. In my lunch break we went to the Doctors together. He confirmed my suspicion and put her on strong antibiotics with a double whammy dose to start her off.
He sent my hubby home with the instructions of making her drink because she was really dehydrated and was on the border line of having IV fluids. She didn't even have the energy to stand up.
When Jerome got her home he gave her some panadol and half a bottle of Gatorade...then she slept for 4 hours.
When I got home we rang the Doctor and told him that she had drunk a little bit and He told us that the specimen she gave him showed the infection and he wanted to see her again to reassess the dehydration.
So off we went again!!!
He was happier with her this time saying she had perked up a little. He spoke to Jasmine and said to her that she must keep drinking or she wasn't going to feel any better. We were then sent home and ordered to stock the fridge with Gatorade!!
Jas is doing really well now..kids bounce back so quickly!! She started eating solid foods yesterday.

So it has been an interesting week to say the least....now I'm exhausted!!!

Three in a row......

My husband and have 3 children. When our first child was born things where very cruisy!!! He was the easiest baby to ever grace the earth!! lol hence the reason we had more...lol. No really Jordan was a really good baby...we didn't have many struggles with him at all!!

Our second baby, Jasmine, was another story!! She wasn't a good sleeper and used to keep us awake most nights!! When Jasmine was born my husband started working at the hospital on the early shift...starting at 6am. That was hard for him...starting so early and not getting much sleep. We worked around it and got through it...but it was tough!!

So this time around when we had our third baby, Joshua, we decided it would be beneficial for us to sleep in separate rooms just while Josh was young and not sleeping through yet. Josh is 19 and a half months and is now sleeping in a little toddler bed in out room and only waking 2-3 times a night. I know that may sound like a lot to you but for Josh that is amazing progress...he is a shocking sleeper!!!!

On New Years Eve this year we went for dinner and drinks at our very good friends house...we had a ball...its so nice to bring in the New Year with close friends...anyway Jerome and I both had too much to drink to be able to drive home so we crashed at our friends house...the catch was that we had to sleep in the same room!!!

Oh I cant tell you how nice it was to wake up on the first day of 2009 next to my husband!!!

And today the 3rd of January 2009 marks the 3rd day in a row that we have woken up next to each other!!!

I think its time to pack the spare bed away!!! lol

Another one gone....

It seems a little unbelievable that another year has past.

2008 was a full-on year for me, my husband and I celebrated our 10th anniversary, my second child started school, my third child started daycare, i went back to work after 6 years at home with my beautiful kids, we welcomed two new members to the family...'Bella' and 'Ben' the cats...(who then decided to become 7....ARGHHHHH....so after finding homes for all but one of the kittens....we have now added 'Bindi' to the family as well!!) my eyes were opened to amazing things like facebook (hehehe) which has been awesome catching up with so many long lost!!! oh and blogging lol. All in all its been a very eventful year.

This year has had its share of heartache as well....with my Pop having a massive heart attack and needing emergency triple by pass surgery to keep him with us. This threw me big time! My Pop and Nan had a huge hand in raising me throughout my childhood....my Pop is the Father Figure in my life. He is an amazing man of integrity and a bug heart. I love my Grandparents so dearly....I cant bear to think of the day I have to say good bye.

So what are my plans for 2009......

well.....

um.....

there are so many things I want to achieve both within myself and for the life of my family.

I want to develop stronger friendships with my husband and my children.

I want to draw nearer to God in a deeper way...I want to understand His Will for my life and His Love for me.

I want to learn to like myself....I want to be free of the baggage that ties me down emotionally and spiritually.

I want to be healthier and fitter.

I want to trust more so that I can love more freely.

I want to excel.

I want to work hard and work well.

I want to be organised and not so stressed all the time.

I want to hire a house cleaner!!!

I want to be a support to the ones that are closest to me in my life...I want the people that are most important to me to feel cared for, loved, appreciated.

I think this list could go on forever...there are so many things that i want to improve about myself and my situation....but at the same time I am the happiest I can ever remember being....RIGHT NOW!

I have the most amazing family and friends....

I pray that you all have a safe and rewarding 2009...that the bumps and curves of life and love wont bounce you off you tracks.....love to you all....xxxx

......... :) ................

wow...I just had an awesome time at the Kaiser work party...had wayyyyyyyyy to much to drink...probably acted like a fool...but I really did have so much fun!!!

Im so blessed to work where I do...and I love the people I work with!!!

oh no

Ok so im kinda freakin out at the moment!!!

Im not the kinda girl who dresses up very often...i love my comfy clothes...but somehow I have to find something to wear to the work Christmas party...the invite dress to impress!!

The problem lies here...I think Ive forgotten how to do that!! And even if I knew what I was doing, my body has gone through some dramatic changes since having children...and they werent good changes!!! I look awful in everything I try on!!

So I think Im not going to be all that impressive at the Christmas party...which makes me sad (devastated actually) cos i really wish my body was the way it was 9 years ago and i could have worn whatever I wanted...not that I was that great back then but I certainly didnt have all the awkward bumps and bulges that are now all over me and simlpy refuse to look decent in anything!! I am going into town today with a new mission...I am no longer looking for a dress that will impress...(cos thats clearly not working for me)...I am now going to look for a simple top and pants...something safe and comfortable...this makes me a little sad cos I really wanted to look pretty and girly.

Oh well one day I will hopefully get somewhat of my shape back and feel confident enough to buy pretty clothes again...problem is a cant see it ever happening. I struggle with this everyday of my life and have for a long time...the truth be told I have had an eating disorder for the majority of my life...I know I know...hard to tell now cos im fat as at the moment...but I have suffered since I was 10 with bulimia which then eventuated to anorexia when I was 16 which landed me in the locked ward of an adolecsent hospital being forced to eat in exchange for my freedom.

(Some of you are probably thinking wow this is a little to deep to be writing on your blog jess...but...well this is me its who I am...)

I had a lot of trauma in my childhood,sometimes life just sux and this contributed to the decisions I made...I cant blame anyone else anymore...the buck has to stop with me..Im an adult now...in control of my choices...but I still really struggle day to day to not fall back into these habits...they have been there for as long as I can remember...the constant nagging voice of "you will never be good enough, you look disgusting, your fat, your ugly...." So in some strange way as protection against my self I have become very overweight...and as much as I cant stand to look at my self in the mirror...its a little safer to be this way than to run the risk of becoming sick again and being taken away. I have a 6 year old daughter and I dont want her to grow up knowing the realities of anorexia in her home...so I give her the reality of having an obese mother instead...makes a lot of sense doesnt it....well theres the funny thing I suppose...when has it ever made sense?

What child is this....

ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Tonight is the night!!!

My little Miss Jasmine Claire is singing @ GLORIOUS @ Kardinia.

Im so nervous for her and excited and so very very very proud!! I think she is so brave!!

We went and got a beautiful dress today....oh and shoes...nail polish...earings...headband...hehehehe. Nothing like taking the opportunity to get dressed up!!

I will post some photosof the event as soon as I get the time!!

Stay tuned....xxx

My eyes welled up on Thursday night, when my little 19 month old Joshua said "PEESSSS" for the first time!!!

(thats please for all those that dont speak toddler)

Oh what a magical moment it was....im soooo proud of him.

Josh started talking really early, saying "dadda" at just 5 months old...he said a couple of other words in the following months but then at around 9 months he stopped..only letting out "dadda" and "mam".

So this progress is much celebrated in our home at the moment...its like the lights have turned on for him!!

My good friend Sharni looked after all my kids yesterday cos i was working and they are on school holidays...(thank you Sharni...you are a star!!xxxxx) and when i picked up my kids Sharni told me that Josh had been saying "ball"!!!!!

I cant wait to hear what he will come out with next....

there are so many joys to be found in the daily lives of my children...I cant imagine my life without them....xxxxx

WOO HOO!!!!!!

My Beautiful little 6 year old was asked to sing at this years Kardinia Carols....Im sooooooo proud of her I want to cry!!!

Every year Kardinia puts on Carols for the Geelong Community, there is usaully around 1000 people attend on each of the nights...what a huge gig for a six year old!!

I think this would be close to Jasmine's biggest dream come true right now...she adores the stage...much like her mother once did..a long time ago...back when i actually had a shred of confidence. I cant tell you how proud I am of my little girl...I cant wait to see her up there...

We better go shopping for the perfect dress!!!

So every one that knows me...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE come along and see my girl do her thing on the 13th and 14th on dec at the Kardinia Heights Centre 7:30pm....oh by the way...anyone with a good camera....could you do me a biggie and take some awesome shots of my little star....xxx